There's nothing left to remember. What came from you stayed. Remains addictive. Healthy and addictive. Stuck in my blood waiting for death to stop the addiction.

Your frozen breath triggers much words. In this white fluorescent. I am a stunted writer. I live in a room of words.

Leaving things is my talent. I met a woman I adored. She could've been my mother. She loved peace. And she loved you. She drank the wine I'd gladly drink everyday. Holy and she was permitted by Zeus. She was old and wise. Her beauty faded with age but her virtues emanated. You left her for someone addicted to your wine. But the addict painfully gave up the vice. The addict was a martyr for the right things.

The wine addict owned it before but lost it. Woe to her.

She looks at pictures and find tears while she stared. She always came out wrong. She was jealous. She was incomplete. She missed the wine.

Just before love got lost, you sang a song that made the world sing. It kept me sober forever. You became the stars above me. Scattered and beautiful. Unaware you are watched while you closed your eyes and the music played.

You are the clothes I wear everyday. I had to wear your love forever because I didn't want to be naked.

Your preserved smile let out a sigh from my blood. Stop closing your eyes. Stop me from watching you! Stop touching my soul. From time to time, you look at me and see through the world.

I do not tire of your presence or absence. It doesn't matter. You're still the wine inside the chalice. I could drink you in the church or in a secret place and I would still love the wine that you are.

What do I have to lose when I already lost you years before?

MENSAHE PARA SA MARAMING TAO AT SA ISANG TAO

MAY RASON BAT TAGALOG TO..DI IBANG LINGGWAHE!

BAT AKO LANG PALAGE ANG BINIBIGYAN NG SAKIT NG ULO..AYOKONG SUMIRA NG BUHAY...AYOKO NANG SUMIRA NG MGA RELASHON..NATUTO NAKO..NASAKTAN.NADAPA.BUMANGON.NAGLAKAD ULI...DAPA ULIT...SAKIT...AYOS LANG SABI NAMAN NI IAN AYOS LANG..ORAS ANG GAGAMOT...ORAS. MAWAWALA ANG SAKIT SA PANAHON. MGA LETRATO LANG ANG MAIIWAN..MGA ALAALA..SA MGA ORAS NA TUMAWA...UMIYAK...NADLAKAD AT UMIWAS.

DI MASYADONG MADALENG I SULAT ANG LAHAT NG NASA ISIP PARA MAGING LITERAL.. DI MASUSULAT AT MASASABI ANG LAHAT..MERON NAIINTINDIHAN KAHIT WALANG SALITA...KAYA NAKIKINIG NALANG SA INSTRUMENTO...NAGPAPATAWAD KAHIT MASAKIT KASE NATURAL NA MAGKAMALI..TAO LANG..DI YAN RASON PARA MAGABUSO...PERO RASON YAN...TAO LANG...SANA PATAWARIN...SA MGA NASAKTAN KO...PAMILYA, KAIBIGAN, MGA MAHAY SA BUHAY AT MGA NAKALIMUTAN KO NA...PATAWAD!

AT SA TAONG NANDUN SA UNA.....AT NAWALA SA GITNA HANGGANG NGAYON...DI NA KITA HINANAP..WALANG RASON KUNG BAKIT. SA TOTOO MARAMING RASON..ANDAMI KAYA KINALIMUTAN KO NA....ANG LAYO MO...BAKASYON...LINGGWAHE...EDAD...ANG BATA KO PA NUN..MENOR DE EDAD....NGAYON NAKIKITA KA NA BILANG ANG TAONG GUSTO MONG MAGING.. NAKAHAWAK NG BASS...NASA IBABAW..NA ALALA MO PA KAYA AKO...NAG IBA NG ITSURA KO...DALAGA NAKO...DI NA AKO BATA....DI NA AKO YUNG DOSE ANYOS NA MAY MAHABANG BUHOK PARANG BIRHEN...DI NA AKO YUN..MAY TATSA NANG LEGS KO..MARUNONG NA AKONG UMINOM...WALA NG CURFEW...BAT NGAYON WALA KA NA...ANJAN KA SA ORAS NA DI PA PWEDE..BAWAL KA PA NUN....BAWAL LAHAT....NGAYON MAS MAGALING KA NA...NASA STAGE...KASAMA MO NANG MGA PRO...ISA KA NA SA KANILA.....KUNG MAY HILING LANG AKO...BUMALIK KA SANA NGAYON TAMA NA ANG PANAHON...PWEDE NA TAYONG MALIGO SA DAGAT NA WALANG MAGAGALIT...AYOS SANA KUNG GANUN...COSA HAAAAY...ASAN KA NA. BUMALIK KA. WAG KA SANANG MAKALIMOT! ALAM MO NA ANG GUSTO KONG SABIHIN. DI KO NA DAPAT ISULAT.

DI NAKO BATA!!! PWEDE NA!

kilala sa kabataan...mas matanda..di masyado pero menor de edad ako..."kumain ka ng marami...aantayin kita pag laki mo!" asan na? ngayong mahal na kita...oo corny men!pero di ko nalimutan yun..ngayong rakstar kana san ako lulugar...di na siguro ako dapat pumapel...ngayon naman ang panahon para ako naman ang maghintay...di na ako bata......pwede na! bumalik ka! bat kase nakita...........................shet! alam mo ano yun...ikaw nang bahala...sana mabasa mo to! sana magkita tayo uli kaibigan ko! kaibigan ko!

naalala ko yung e-heads at rivermaya...ang ating oldskool...ikaw rason bat ako rakista! ngayon kabanda mo nang mga idolo mo...bat ang lupit ng panahon! ampota!

kaya di nila ako masisisi kung di ako nagseseryoso..di mo nga ako sinaktan...pero masakit yung totoo...na bata ako nun...at pag asa lang ang meron ako.....ginusto kong lumake agad..may rason kung bat ang isang tao ganun...kung bat ako ganito salamat sayo..salamat...salamat sa binigay mong mga bagay na mahahawaka, makikita, at sa mga bagay na di nakikita...nadadama! salamat! oras naman para akong maghintay. at maghihintay ako!

ANG BEER NATO O ANG PAG IBIG MO!

Praise the Lord

Water! I need water. I need a drink. I need alcohol! That’s how I reacted when I found out. Silence on the world. The moon outside, I imagine glowing silver. Now I know how dharma is. Karma my karma. You just wilt inside just when the world is ripe. You cry but you have no tears. Excited for plans then you lose eagerness because of the news. When it’s all white there comes a stain. When the music is perfect the audio jams to fuckin pieces of mistakes. Noise. You go deaf. You look for water but you’re too lazy to get up and get it. You’re so alive but dead inside. You close your eyes and wish the pain away. But it lingers and teases.

Return is not a bad thing. The past was never bad but the fragments that make up the present. It’s already flawed and I found out tonight.

It’s okay. We were just too late. You came in too late. Too bad it’s not meant. Too bad you never meant to hurt me. Too bad it never bloomed the way it did before. Too bad we’re never given another real second chance. Too bad it’s hard to change it back. Too bad it really hurt me. So sad. I’m lost for more words. For reasons. For certain ideals to make alibis. And you have enough reasons. It’s not your fault neither mine. We were just not meant to sail away, to fly, to have the vacation done.

It’s always the greatest pain every time you experience it alone. When you know you’re leaving something you never want to leave, that never wants to be left. When magnets attract it looks ideal but sometimes magnets should be kept where they should be. To belong to owners. To get back to the shelves and fridges where they are stuck. Forever. Bound to suffer their vows.

Hush now. Let me have it all in my room. Let me nurse the tears alone. Don’t worry it’s okay. We both didn’t mean what happened during the years before.

“Loving means never having to say you’re sorry.” Just let me cry. Just let it be. We don’t want to hurt other people. We lived without each other for years and we could live without each other for the days to come.

We’re independent. We’re good people I believe. We don’t want to hurt other people. Never mind us. We’re responsible for this. What we had years ago was a good friendship that still leaves me smiling when I remember it. But it was just that.

We don’t need to apologize. No pain I hope.

My hands became weak when I learned it. You’re tone became nervous. Then silence. Let me cry. Let me just be melodramatic. Let me forget you the way it should be. We were too late. But you know I never forgot about you and I never will. No regrets.

Best days of my juvenile years. Then you brought it back when we met again. But we were too late. Time wasn’t right and I won’t have any resentment of it.

I don’t know how to take you off of my system now. You were my first love, first kiss. You were the first one that I missed.

It aches like a pain pill. Lethal. I stop myself from cursing. I don’t blame you. Please take care of yourself. Please let me go. Leave me cool the way we lost us before. Think I’m okay. Think I can do without you. We don’t want to hurt anymore than us. Let’s do the right thing. Get it over with. Hard. Wordless. Heavy. Nostalgic. I loved you pure.

We were just too late. You’re already branded. Let us just be inspired.

Much respect! Much love! We smile and say goodbye!

Goodbye Love!

i promise i won't go out with other guys again...not that i went out with anyone on a date...i ain't guilty..i went out with them coz we were friends..no other reason. i won't go out with friends again!

o yan masaya ka na? pwede mokong i monitor via brenda...o kahit sinong kaibigan ko basta yan di nako lalabas o sasabay sa mga taong di mo gusto..mga taong kaibigan ko SANA pero gusto mong iwasan ko! galing mo noh! galing mo talaga! yan di na ako pwedeng magkabarkada! amputa! pero ikaw ang bahala...ganyan ka ka importante kaya sana wag ka ng magduda...di ako lalabas kasama sila para makipagdate o anuman...di ko alam ang ginagawa mo kase may tiwala ako at ayoko ng komplikado..pero sana maappreciate mo ang sacripisho kong to..trabaho kong lumabas pero di ko alam pano ko gagawin to...basta yan ang pangako ko...homegirl nalang ako ngayon..rarampa paminsanminsan pero di na ako makikipagbarkada sa kung sino sino! ganyan ka

i live my dreams the way i want...not on marshal law! gets?

di porket lumalabas ako kasamang mga kaibigan ko naghahanap nako ng iba! eh ikaw naman eh...di naman kita pinagbabawalan kase trabaho mo yan eh..ako buhay ko rin to...trabaho kong makihalubilo sa kanila kase yun ang dapat sa field ko..di pa naman ako pwedeng lumipat..konting pasensha..lilipat din ako..sooooon. pero sa ngayon sana maintindihan mo na lahat silay kaibigan ko lang..at wala akong ibang MAHAL! shet ang corny ko pero alam mo naman password ko diba kaya eto basahin mo..kainin mo to! galit na kung galit pero wag kang oa! sino ba namang di magagalit...eh kung gigs nyo halos di ka nagrereply kase busy daw sa tugtugan..nagtitiwala ako at di ako nagdududa...kahit minsan medyo di kita pinagkakatiwalaan..di paren ako nagtatanong..di ako marunong gumawa ng away kase ayoko ng away! lilipat ako jan...ilang buwan nalang..di naman siguro gaano kahirap nun diba? sobrang inlab ako sayo..tingnan mo nga mukha mo sa salamin kung dapat mo bang pagselosan ang mga kasama ko dito...rakstar nga sila pero alam mo kung sino ka..alam mong wala akong ginagawang masama! bahala ka kung wala kang tiwala...di ko alam pano kita papaniwalain..basta yun na yun...di ako hihingi ng sorry..bahala ka! bahala ka! bahala ka! konting tiis....di ka na magdududa! konting tiis malapit na..

i don't care what they say..i love him near or far! he's been one  good person, humble and kind and true...we don't clash...we jive! at mahal ko sha higit sa lahat! i just miss you.....sobra! philippe salamat sayo...salamat sa mga sinabi mo, lahat ng binigay mo! salamat sa mga ginawa mo...salamat sa pagbalik! rock n roll nalang para walang problema!

sa di pa kami nagkabalikan ni philippe alam nya ang sitwashon ko dito..kapraningan at kaoahan ko..alam nya nay maymahal ako sa islang to! sinend nya yung kanta ng parokya ni edgar yung halaga...eto yung lyrics


HALAGA

Umiiyak ka na naman
Langya talaga , wala ka bang ibang alam
Namumugtong mga mata
Kailan pa ba kaya ikaw magsasawa
II. Sa problema na iyong pinapasan
Hatid sayo ng boyfriend mong hindi mo maintindihan
May kwento kang pandrama na naman
III.Parang pang TV na walang katapusan
Hanggang kailan ka bang ganyan
Hindi mo ba alam na walang pupuntahan
Ang pagtiyaga mo dyan sa boyfriend mong tanga
Na wala nang ginagawa kundi ang paluhain ka

Chorus:
Sa libu-libong pagkakataon na tayoy nag-kasama
Iilang ulit palang kitang makitang masaya
Naiinis akong isipin na ginaganyan ka nya
Siguro ay hindi niya lang alam ang iyong
Tunay na halaga

IV. Hindi na dapat pag-usapan pa
Nagpapagod na rin ako sa aking kakasalita
Hindi ka rin naman nakikinig
Kahit sobrang pagod na ang aking bibig
V. Sa mga payo kong di mo pinapansin
Akala mo’y nakikinig di rin naman tatanggapin
Ayoko nang isipin pa
Di ko alam ba’t di mo makayanan na iwanan sya
VI. Ang dami-dami naman diyang iba
Wag kang mangangambang baka wala ka nang ibang Makita
Na lalake na magmahal sayo
At hinding hindi nya sasayangin ang pag-ibig mo
VII. Minsan hindi ko maintindihan
Parang ang buhay natin ay napagti-tripan
Medyo Malabo yata ang mundo
Binabasura ng iba ang siya’y pinapangarap ko


tama sha...at salamat sayo PH...love you! ngayon wala nang mga pasakit nya...inalis mo na!

Ian Irving Tayao: sulat ka ngayon dito dali imbento tayo
devilica: sige sige
devilica: english o tagalog
devilica: ?
Ian Irving Tayao: tagalog muna
Ian Irving Tayao: wag mo munang paduguin ilong ko
Ian Irving Tayao: mamaya na
devilica: o sige sige
Ian Irving Tayao: mamaya na ba? o nangyare na?
Ian Irving Tayao: anung dapat mung makita?
devilica: tinakpan ba nang tandhana
Ian Irving Tayao: bukas iisipin mo ako kahit saglit lang
Ian Irving Tayao: kasi malayo ako pero malapit sa puso mo
Ian Irving Tayao: hahahaha
Ian Irving Tayao: nakakahawa
devilica: nawawalan ako ng malay pag anjan ka
Ian Irving Tayao: parang nakita na kita. nahaplos nakalabit '
devilica: wag mo nang itago...
devilica: dumidilim ang aking paningin
Ian Irving Tayao: pangitain mo dumidikit. humihila. nagsasalita. dampi
Ian Irving Tayao: tuyo na ang labi
devilica: di ko alam kung kakalimutan
Ian Irving Tayao: saan ba at kelan?
Ian Irving Tayao: nangyare na'
devilica: di ko alam kung anjan pa ba para balikan
Ian Irving Tayao: walang ka babalikan lahat bumabalot para maging paro paro
devilica: akala mo tatanggapin kong hamon mo
Ian Irving Tayao: lumipad at mahuli para gawing dekorashon na itatapon lang
devilica: babalik parin kahit itinapon
devilica: hindi mawawala sa kawalan
Ian Irving Tayao: ayos lang. wala naman akung gusto sa mundo
Ian Irving Tayao: isa lang
Ian Irving Tayao: pagmamahal
You have accepted the invitation to start photo sharing.

Ian Irving Tayao: dont really care bout your secrects now. just wanna hold u, calm u down. down to the lane of the apocalypse, just feel the rush of our chemistry....
Ian Irving Tayao: game?
Ian Irving Tayao: hahaha
devilica: sige
devilica: haha
devilica: sigesige ikaw mauna
Ian Irving Tayao: luge
Ian Irving Tayao: kanina ako nauna eh
devilica: o sige sige english o tagalog?
Ian Irving Tayao: kaw bahala
Ian Irving Tayao: patayin moko
devilica: o sige sige
devilica: I hold respect when it comes to your vulgarity
Ian Irving Tayao: ahhhh
devilica: I complain only about your sanity
Ian Irving Tayao: teka
devilica: tagalog?
Ian Irving Tayao: inde
Ian Irving Tayao: go go
devilica: this drug  has perpetual effects
Ian Irving Tayao: sanity? i prefer existentialism. i prefer not to be with myself, most of the time
devilica: i got no philosophies..i live day and night with a yearning
devilica: i'll think of tomorrow as a promise
devilica: but the next day comes and it's all the same yearning
Ian Irving Tayao: yearning it is. though along contemplation lies the debt of blissful chaos
Ian Irving Tayao: shameless it will mold u
devilica: in chaos i remember my addiction
devilica: scattered inside your soul
Ian Irving Tayao: like a glass kissing fire
devilica: sometimes i envy your art
Ian Irving Tayao: i have no soul. being that i am, i am lost
devilica: i wish i was lost with you...insane with you
Ian Irving Tayao: spineless child. labor of love.
devilica: i wish i was that
devilica: and yet you complain a lot
Ian Irving Tayao: you are with me, always been, so you browse again ang again....stalking my intuitions
devilica: why do you detatch yourself from a reality that embraces you
devilica: you hide when i seek
devilica: come back to the world where ice cream won’t make you fat, where clothing is free
devilica: and laws are still laws while you sing me songs as i remain unknown
Ian Irving Tayao: and we remain unkind
Ian Irving Tayao: unique
Ian Irving Tayao: black
devilica: white
devilica: colored
devilica: confused
Ian Irving Tayao: no
Ian Irving Tayao: colorless
Ian Irving Tayao: genderless
Ian Irving Tayao: but not colorblind
devilica: drawn to the magnet of whatever
devilica: makig conclusions
Ian Irving Tayao: poles
devilica: believing in god while we are crucified
Ian Irving Tayao: conclusions dont bother me
Ian Irving Tayao: doesnt
devilica: and then we sit counting the years
devilica: when all the kids have grown
Ian Irving Tayao: take off this chains. you run. never be afraid. dont ever look back. a love decieving flame.
devilica: you wore the chains...no one imposed it on you
devilica: you trapped yourself and made love a lie
Ian Irving Tayao: release the hands from the riverstone....itl lead you to the ocean of purity
devilica: it has always been pure
Ian Irving Tayao: no
Ian Irving Tayao: impurities begets love
Ian Irving Tayao: love begets love
devilica: i was deceived...it looked pure...and true
Ian Irving Tayao: true it is
devilica: just as the ocean is silent
Ian Irving Tayao: but not pure
devilica: it flashed in my head like movie
devilica: where you are the star
Ian Irving Tayao: a mixture of universal medium
Ian Irving Tayao: mad?
devilica: and i was the audience
devilica: looking up  in awe
devilica: wondering why such cliche
devilica: the i fell under the spell of alcohol and sang your song
Ian Irving Tayao: and so u did
Ian Irving Tayao: just like me
devilica: but you were my star while i was the audience
devilica: yehey!!!!!!!!!
devilica: hay sarap!
Ian Irving Tayao: keep dancing in the rain....remember?
Ian Irving Tayao:
devilica: how can i forget i was so sober
Ian Irving Tayao: and manic
devilica: i didn't panic
Ian Irving Tayao: you know what you want but you just dont know
Ian Irving Tayao: haahahha
Ian Irving Tayao: man
Ian Irving Tayao: ayos ayos
Ian Irving Tayao: apir
devilica: teka teka may tawag

It's good to know I've strayed for a while and wished I'd went on being astray from that certain road. She was the girl who made me believe in vagabond dreams. Rogue lifestyle while mixing it en vogue. I wrote photo captions 'the love of my life' and now I face the truth that she loves someone named Eric. Well, that's supposed to be fair. That's what should be!

I was just too young or too naïve to see it yet. She was beautiful with wits sharper than arrows. Her name, the sound of it, made me shiver in amazement, in love. Now I shiver trying to ignore how heavy it feels. 

The girl with stars in her shoulders and above her butt. Poetically and literally. I wonder why she was that and I'm this. I loved her for a portion. Two of my realities. She belonged to the smaller one where most parts are dreamy and full of amusement. Where all we did was laugh, smile, scream, head bang, dance, drink, kiss, embrace, touch, love and forget the other half of life that was tearful and bleak. It was a short while. She was my desert rose. And I loved her for her. For the girl that she was. Yes, I cheated on her. And yes she cheated on me more. Or maybe we cheated on each other fairly. But at the end of the day, we agreed, forgave, smiled once again as we reconciled and held each other in each other's arms. Wishing to Venus, that the day won't come to take us away from each other.

Her name was Monique. I met her in a late Halloween party nearing December. A fresh graduate who chose to be a bum for a year. Never expecting the future in her words yet. She was single. I was single, fresh from a breakup like her as she lied. Semi-crushed and crushing around.

Dance floor, I never danced with the guys. I preferred the gays. Full make up on. Her make up was ten years ahead of fashion. Her skin was silver and pink. She wore brands, smelled sweet perfume. Acted confident. It was the start of lesbian love.

When we were together, we'd make each other look beautiful. Spiritually we were opposites. She loved material. I loved God. But she managed to make me use make up. We look like best friends walking hand in hand together. People saw it as friendship, judging superficially.

But I loved her. We'd spend nights lazing in my bed. Mother thought we were making projects. Her features were photogenic. I could live an entire year just praising her.

Our love lasted for about two months. Two months that seemed forever. Then January came to take her away. To take her back to her home city. She promised return.

We kept in touch and I was committed. I felt it was more serious than any other relationship. I thought that gender was just the packaging and it didn't matter. Bottom line, I loved her!

January 12, her cousin Clare sent me a text message just saying hello and that she's got something to tell me. Her next message was a picture of Monique kissing a guy. A perfect couple.  You could clearly see the whole story behind the picture. I would've loved looking at them except for the fact of their identities. She said they've been together for two years. That his name was Eric.

I tried to call Monique but she cancelled the call. Instead she sent me a message, "Miss you! Don't go seeing anyone else there! I'm painting."

I hit back, "Don't you have anyone else there?"

Her reply, "I'm not seeing anyone else! I promise promise promise! Love you!"

I stood by the way side, traffic silenced by the news and the denial. I just had fifty pesos in my pocket. If I just had millions I'd buy insensitiveness. Their sweet kiss on my mind and on the phone screen.

I sent her the picture that Clare sent me. Slow moving tears. What could be her excuse? Would she tell me she was sorry he was a mistake? That it was fake? Or was I her most elaborate mistake?

"You don't trust me! I don't have anyone else!" was her reply. She didn't even answer my calls. Isn't it funny when you're standing and yet you die leisurely inside while they deny!

A week passed and no word from her. Till it came, "You knew I was just there on vacation. And we're both girls! What can you expect? Forever? I'm sorry."

Was I blind to the clichés of culture? I'm left with no choice but to break beneath our indifference and difference.

Whoever wrote this line I salute to you. I saw it printed in huge letters on a rocker guy's shirt. Oh yes! Love knows no gender

smiling...you were funny..then crying so much for fun and remembering..your name!

frozen margaritas. blue margaritas. mojitos. i love the salt in margaritas..makes the whole drink divine!

Alcohol Pointers: later

the food i'm eating is superatural. i have bread with milo as filling! so divine! so five star!

i love you beyond eden! i love you between the clouds and the sky...i love you before sunset and forever more...i love you every filling of the glass. i love you when i puke..when i'm insane. i love you when i drink beer and fuck fear..i love you where there is darkness and clarity...i love you where there's life and death...i love you for one second and a billion times more...

i wanna wake up where you are...at night and kiss you endlessly till my lips bleed and tire....till you say you love me...i'll be complacent even if you let me wash the dishes..i know your heresies..i admire it..i forgive you even before you committ sin..i can fast for you...lie to you...lie for you...lie with you...lie down with you.....

i swear i hate your idiosyncrasies...at the same time it's what i love about you..unique...i love the fact that there's freedom and pain in loving you.

you know i'm not someone who will impose. i don't even know how to demand committment! how can i dare to demand something i can't even give? i'm happy with the freedom i have now...cruising!

but i guess it was 2 years ago.. red light..i had to cross the street..i saw you on a mobile..you didn't take notice even if you knew i was there..i crossed the street in front of you..acting oblivious..that day was my 2nd day of running away from home..those days when youth goes wild..the future of the nation becomes familial rebels! that was the time when i had to pretend my arms were broken just so i won't have to hear the sermon of prophets!

and i saw you that day. you looked so beautiful, serene, new worldish, modern, full of life in you face, not minding me! how i loved you back then!

how i still love you now!

downtick!

dreadlocks..resorted to reggae..rock n roll and percusions. arciemon gave me a CD of those tribal instrumetal stuff...he scolded me, "BAD THINGS!" he referred to you..my love for you was 'badthings' for him. i'd sit in the shop wondering..sitting blank. ocassionally smiling. lost in my thoughts of you..sometimes distracted by the passing cars and vehicles.. playing the instruments while they weren't around.

when jojo was still here in bohol...we talked about our lives. he came from the tribes of mindanao..he knew i loved you and he knew i'd restrain myself from showing emotions.

we'd talk about how much he loved yvonne..and how it all ended in a blink of an eye..one day they were holding hands, kissing, lying side by side, saying sweet things, promising forever. the next day she told him it was over.

he hid bitterness...he loved yvonne...

i understood him...afterall, i was also in a same situation...bitter!